My wish for new year..

2010??? hmm.. my wish for new year..?? "new LIFE.."
year 2009, for me year na sobrang lungkot, walang kwentang year, tears, pain, sorrow, laging umaasa sa wala, laging umaasa na someday maging ok na lahat, umaasa na sana may taong kaya akong mahalin ng walang alinlangan, umaasa lagi na sana oneday bumalik na xa and hinde na ako iiwan, laging umaasa na sana tuparin nya lahat ng promise nya skin.. ang sakit lang isipin na boung taon umasa ako sa wala.. at this moment,, naiiyak ako hinde ko alam kong ano ba ung nararamdaman ko.. gusto kong umiyak ng sobra, sumigaw ng malakas, dahil until now may pain pa rin coz i still love loi.. last christmas ngusap kmi tinawagan nya ko, nagkamustahan, saying imissyou,, na until now mahal pa rin nmn ung isa't isa.. u know what kun ano mas masakit isipin dun, mahal nya ko mahal ko xa pero hinde kami..

gusto ko na matapos lahat ng pain and lungkot na nararamadaman ko now.. nakikita ng mga friends ko and family na mukha me happy kc lagi me nakikipag biruan sa kanila pero deeep inside sobrang lungkot ko..

sana this coming year 2010 matapos na lahat.. gusto ko naman maging happy, yung totoong happy.. ang hirap mag pretend na masaya sa harap ng ibang tao.. na sana maging maayos na lahat especially samin ni loi.. kahit nagkagusto me sa ibang guy, still si loi pa rin love ko and xa lang ung huling lalaking mamahalin ko ng ganito..

Last Love Letter..

to the person i considered my soulmate.. when you came into my life, i told myself i would love you and never gonna hurt you.. you were my bestfriend, my love, my everything.. till one day you said," i cant stay with you any longer.." i refuse to believe you at first but when i look in your eyes, it spells out the truth about how you really feel inside.. u can't even look straight into my eyes.. my life has changed at that very moment.. i just found myself on bended knees,, yelling.." why..?!" i was down completely.. saying goodbyes, i knew it but i cant accept it.. the kiss, whisper, embrace.. it was the last..we always thought our love was enough for us to last.. i know you're happy now wherever you are.. its a year now since we broke up, this has been the longest year of my life, the most painful part of my life, flashing back those memories we shared, hugs and kisses, promises we made, tears and emotions.. the sadness of the nights brings back the days/time we shared.. the time you let go of me and the moment i surrendered you.. even silence reminds me of all the sorrow, the pain and my hopelessness.. but i forgive you and im setting you free.. "KUNG TALAGANG TAYO PARA SA ISA'T ISA, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN KAHIT GANO PA TAYO KATAGAL MAGHIHIWALAY MAGIGING TAYO PARIN IN THE END.." hear me say this,, "i have found the essence of my life, i have discovered a world that's beautiful, because of you.."

those memories,, thank you..

- miMimTIN